Seph has been spending a little too much time alone...

[creepy-son-of-a.livejournal.com]

Ever since that little adventure in my dream I have felt... different. As if by confirming that I am only part of what I thought I was, the division between the two parts has become noticeable. They loathe each other and what I am in the waking world can't be either of them.

I am having difficulties thinking of myself as Sephiroth when I am mostly something else. The only name I've known. My memories are mostly his. The rest only having come into existence recently.

Do I even want to be what I thought I was? What would I become without the fragment of Sephiroth? Is there enough to continue existing without it? What would happen to that fragment if it were separated from me?

So many questions and I feel there is limited time to find answers.

Comments

[songbird9.livejournal.com]

Do I need to go find another name from Greek mythology?

Sorry. I couldn't resist.

Seriously though, learning who you are can be one of the most challenging things in life, especially with the sort of complications you face.
It's something that no one else can do for you.

[creepy-son-of-a.livejournal.com]

A different name wouldn't change anything.

It's true that I need to face this myself but, getting another perspective could be helpful.

[songbird9.livejournal.com]

In that case, perhaps you should spend a little while trying to disconnect from who you used to be, and only thinking about who you are now. Just stop making any associations with the past, or assumptions based on them. The result may lead back to the past, but the idea is just to see where you stand now and try to think about it from a fresh angle.

Just an idea.

[harpie-siren.livejournal.com]

I say we call him George.

[creepy-son-of-a.livejournal.com]

You act as if you are naming a puppy.

If I decide to go by a different name it will be one I choose myself.